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Thursday, June 12, 2003

5:33PM

Okay. Tomorrow is graduation. Weird, huh?

I'm so tired. Practice was so lame today. It was all cold and windy and rainy, then the sun would come out and it would get all hot, then cold and windy, then hot, then cold, and so on until I almost fell asleep. It's gonna be weird leaving high school. I know that I'm not even gonna see most of these people ever again or talk to them. Even some of the people that I'm "close" with. Oh well. No worries. Just more of a chance to escape and start again. yay.

My pappy just got here. How exciting. I hope tomorrow goes well. Both graduation and the little party. A lot of people won't be coming though, because I'm not as important as others. What a great feeling. I won't get to see a lot of my friends on graduation night, then I won't get to see them for like six weeks. But whatever. I know I'm not important enough. :/

fuck

I'm not what I used to be I'm not what I'm not what I used to be and I, I don't know myself

Current mood: tired

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

4:21PM - some people like to call me chuck. it's charles and you are shit outta luck.

Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my GOD! OH MY GOD! *screams in pleasure*

Tomorrow is my last day of school. And I don't even have to do anything. Oh wow. Oh wow. Dood. Yay for no fucking school. Rock. Man. ROCK.

fuck you, buddy fuck you, buddy fuck you, buddy

yay for tool

I think I shall murder Mr. Wyant. Who's with me!!! No more Mr. Wyant. No others shall have to go through that torture. We can end it ALL. haha. Sorry.

I'm just so essited to be done with shool. I love it. haha. YES.

But yeah. That's just about all I can think about. I don't have to do anymore school stuff. I'm done. Tonight, I am free to waste my time. Rockin'. I don't have any tests to study for, any homework to finish, anything at all to worry about. It's such an awesome feeling. No more high school forever! haha. yes

hahahahahaha. I was playing chess with this guy (I was red) and this is what he wrote to me:

White> Be right back...
White> Okay, I'm back
White> Oops!
White> Nice move
White> You're welcome
White> Thank you
White> It's your turn
White> No
White> Nice try
White> King me!

hahahaha. That all came at once. Who knows what he wanted to say. haha. Wheee! Anyway...

Radiohead will be here soooon. I hope Kevin gets me a ticket if he camps out...

haha. Well, now I'm just spilling random thoughts. I'd better go. Byeeeee!

Current mood: crazy

Wednesday, June 4, 2003

5:53PM

So yeah. It's been a year or so since I updated, so I think I'm gonna do that now. teehee. It's shame that I have nothing to say.

I've missed so much school in the past two days, and I'm missing all day tomorrow for a field trip. It's awesome. I'm really confused though. I don't even know what day it is. haha. Oh well. Good times, right?

I might be hanging out with Zoooobieee on Friday. Yay! I've never hung out with him. Crazy crazy.

hahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaa. My family is arguing and yelling about Scrabble. Fuckin crazies. Wheeee!

I got $150 from my grams today for graduation. Fuckin' ROCK! I love getting money. It's so cool. I don't even know the people who are sending it to me. It's awesome. I wish it happened all the time. Not just for graduation. haha. Oh well. Not like any of it matters, cuz it's all going into the $850 I OWE FOR MY CAR. Fuck. I hate cars. abfoliearjgiar/ Stupid pieces of SHIT. argh.

PEOPLE! GET OVER YOURSELVES! NO ONE CARES! NO ONE BUT YOU! *frazzles*

What a fun word. Frazzles. haha. Actually, I don't think it's a word. But it's all good.

Dude. I hate people. Always. and Forever. They should all die. Every last one of them. DIE. *cue creepy slasher music*

But yeah. I think I'm gonna go now. My brain is mushing around in my head and rolling itself around. KNEADING itself. That's the word. :)

Current mood: frustrated

Sunday, May 25, 2003

6:50PM

Don't be mad, Don. I can't explain...

Shit. I am so out of shape, it's not even funny. I'd *tried* running today. ha. Didn't work out too well. You've gotta love bein' fat. ;)

i must keep reminding myself of this.

Shool's almost out. How exciting. I seriously just don't give a fuck anymore. I should be applying for scholarships and all that madness, but it's just not happening. haha. The only thing I'm looking forward to is the end. That's all. I get $1,000 scholarship for graduating early, though. That fuckin' rocks my socks off. Whooo!

I'm so essited. A bunch of people want to enlarge my penis size AND my breast size. yay! I love people competing over who gets to alter my body parts. Especially those I don't have. HA. And all those helpful people who want to help me reduce my debt and lower my mortgage. Now that is what I need. :)

Spam is good for the soul.

Current mood: tired

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

6:06PM - hush little baby don't say a word momma's gonna buy you a mockingbird blegh

Perhaps I was sad today. I don't know. Something must have been wrong. I guess I don't know myself well enough...?

Oh well. It's all good.

Umm, yeah. I found something out today. Something that would be bad and that would cause drama in the regular world. In mine, I really don't care. Read away, read away.

I guess I'll take the ACT again since I'm already registered. My plan is to stay at Don's house that night cuz we're both taking it at East the next morning. Mebbe. We'll see. It's a shame that my parents would never go for it. hehe. Whatev.

Life will actually be enjoyable during the summer. No more high school for the rest of my LIFE. rock. I'm so essited. I wanna see Fischerspooner in concert so bad. That would be the show of a lifetime. But I will prolly get to see Radiohead, and Jane's Addiction, and MAYBE Ben Harper if it's not sold out already. hehe. Oh well.

you know what i learned about friends? a lot are only illusions--smokey illusions that pass right by your life and are gone before you can think to remember.

So does any of it matter? Of course not.

Current mood: contemplative

Thursday, May 15, 2003

9:48PM

Rock. There was just an ECLIPSE and it rocked my world. I love that kind of thing. They're so awesome. All that crazy sheit.

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself.

Choose your future.

CHOOSE LIFE.

Yes! rock

6:29PM - Wheeeee!

I finally have a journal! Rock.

I'm going to dinner with Donalbain tonight, at Baja nontheless! I'm happy. And hungry. haha. really hungry.

But yeah. Life kinda sucks right now. My mom made me take out my beautiful gauges. How great. Don't you just love stupid people? ugh

ROCK

I feel kinda weak and even lightheaded. I can't stay standing. I really need to eat. Plus, I can't think! So I'll be off now. bye byeee!

Current mood: hungry